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So for visual arts, our task is to create a piece that represents our phobias - to showcase our identity and who we are. Though it can go two ways, I find this task to be quite interesting.

Back who knows how long, I was a fearless child - taking on every challenge and wanting to experience new things and push my limits. I suppose you could say that I used to scare my parents with all the trouble I would get myself into. But that's the thing - I was fearless. Invincible. Playing football with older people and performing in front of huge crowds. I was at the top of my game.

But of course, things change. I kept more to myself and I became the anxious thing I am now. I've developed fears that I never thought I would have and at times they would consume me to the point of just breaking down into tears.

While sharing our fears in class, people have, per say, "common" fears - arachnophobia, basiphobia, thanatophobia, and many more. It was soon my turn and I've had people calling out on how my phobias are "weird" and "dramatic". I suppose I could see how they may think that way when given no contextual information. Though these thoughts have made me even more determined to make my piece.

When people see my piece, I want them to actually feel the anxiety and the disturbance of my fears. Not that I want to upset them - I just want to show how mediocre things that people may view may actually affect other people in many ways. And so, I continue to generate all of my ideas for my final piece in hopes not for the attention but for the conversations that may be brought up on the subject.

Though this post may be one of those babble posts, I would still do the usual and give you guys the song and book for the meantime (you know, until my next update and all). For today, I wish for you to listen to Hozier's cover of Do I Wanna Know by the Arctic Monkeys. I've been liking Hozier a lot more lately, and I actually found out about him through that cover. Though I love the original version, I also like the cover - gives off a more mellow vibe. As how a friend of mine described it, "It's like one of those songs you hear at a cafe". The book would then be The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer by Michelle Hodkin, a book that a friend of mine recommended, so naturally I would recommend it to others as well. Anyways, I hope you are all doing well. Take care, and until next time!