Well

I've been really busy. Lots of school stuff to do (well, it's just a few, but they really take a long time to finish). I feel worse than before. And I actually fell asleep watching Harry Potter. Harry Potter. That is really a big thing for me okay.

I'm somehow starting to feel that growing up thing. Like when you need to choose between something you need to do, and something you want to do. I mean, yeah, it's not much. But yeah. I need to study and stuff, but I want to write stuff and draw. The more I work, the less I get inspired to draw something.

So I need to do a lot of stuff. Here's Roar by Katy Perry to keep you busy. Now excuse me. I think I may be having an allergic reaction.

Greetings from Neverland

I'm not sure if you guys are wondering why I haven't updated last week (or idk). The reason for that is my usual excuse. I was tired. But it got worse.

Saturday, I slept at 6. 6. Do you know how early that is for me? You might be thinking 'Oh, so you had a lot of sleep! That's great!' No. It sucked. I woke up at 11. I mean, yeah, I went back to sleep eventually (at around 12), but then I woke up again at around 3. Really sucked.

Anyways, I've been really busy. Yes, I was busy before, but idk I just feel the stress. Hopefully this is just a phase and it'll pass. I hate feeling so paranoid and tense.

I didn't really watch the TCAs, but I heard a lot about it. No matter how much I want to talk about that, I wouldn't. Things happened, and I promised that I won't give you guys a long post about the TCAs.

I also found out that City of Bones will be released here on August 22! So that's 9 days away! Can't wait to watch. I've been seeing a lot of scenes from Tumblr (yes, I saw those before, but). If only I have an Idris University hoodie. I guess I'll just order one some other time.

Not really much to say, since I just did some work for school. So here's Why Am I The One by Fun. Enjoy!

Isolated

Pitter-patter, pitter-patter. I looked up at the dark grey sky, raindrops splashing onto my thick-framed glasses. With one pale hand, I removed them and tried to wipe it with my jacket’s sleeve, my attempt being in vain.

Teenagers around me ran as they tried to get to shelter. I stood up from the bench, the park being almost abandoned by people. I clasped the black backpack by my side and slung it over my shoulder.

I began to trudge my way home, which was only at Wellington street. My cerulean blue eyes scanned looked down to the black watch on my wrist. Five minutes past seven.  Lev will surely be upset.

Lev, also known as Levon, is my stepbrother. My mother and Lev’s father got married just last year. Lev and I have been close since we met. We just get along well. Since our parents are away for a business trip, the two of us have the whole house alone.

As I reached a block away from my house, a horn honked at me. I turned to see a red Lamborgini, the window rolled down to reveal a group of teenagers in crop tops, short shorts, and girls wearing absolutely too much make up.

“Enjoying the weather, Lucas?” the girl behind the wheel, Jennette, sneered. “Your name being Rain and all, I’m sure you’re enjoying this.”

“Maybe she’s the one who made it rain!” proclaimed the other girl, Britney at the passenger’s seat. “Lucas being a demon, and all.”

“If you Leams are done spreading the word that I’m the devil,” I said, my tone clipped. “I would prefer for you all to leave, so I can go home.”

Leam Rigns, or Leam for short, is practically the most popular group in school. They go around in their million dollar cars wearing almost exactly the same clothes, the girls wearing tight fitted or short clothes, the guys wearing very loose clothes that look ridiculous.

The reason why they’re popular in our school, and practically the whole town? Either they’re rich, or they are known for getting into trouble.

Lev and I belong to Loid Scok, or Loids. We’re basically the people who everyone ignores. It’s not that we’re anti-social or something. We just chose to be invisible to people. We like keeping quiet and doing our own business within our group. Sadly, the Leams enjoy tormenting Loid, seeing us as ‘prey-worthy’

“Oh, Lucas.” Jennette threw her head back as she let out an almost with-like laugh. “You should feel honoured to be in our presence, you little Loid.”

“How can you Leams still talk with all that make up making you look like clowns?” I sighed. I just want to go home, really.

“Tch. You are such a freak.” Hissed Jennette.

Before I could react, the Lamborgini’s wheel turned, the puddle of water and grime by the road spraying me, making me soaked to the bone. The Leams laughed as they drove off, leaving me dripping wet.

I sighed, dragging myself home. Leams truly enjoy tormenting us.

As I reached the house, I turned the knob of the door, the door already being unlocked.

“Rain Xandra Lucas!” Lev rushed towards me by the door, face a mix of frustration and worry. “Where have you been, and why are you dripping wet?”

He was wearing a red and black hoodie with gray sweats and black socks. Lev’s thick-rimmed glasses were perched on his nose, Lev stating before that it makes him feel smart.

“Hello to you too, Levon Xavier Lucas.” I threw my soaked backpack on the sofa. “I’ll just stay here and freeze for a while, alright?”

“Ugh,” Lev threw at towel on the sofa at me. “I prepared tea, if you want.”

“Yeah, thanks.” I rubbed the towel on my black hair as I sat down on the sofa, my older blonde stepbrother poured tea in the cup in front of me.

“Mind telling me what happened?” he asked as he pushed the cup towards my direction.

“I was just at the park after school.” I set the towel down beside me as I picked up the teacup. “It began to rain, so I decided to go back. I was a block away when some Leams decided to have a chat with me.”

“Jennette and her clown clique?” Lev sneered as I nodded, sipping from the cup. “What did they say this time?”

“Nothing new really,” I shrugged. “Just me being the devil and making it rain. Getting old already actually.”

Lev nodded, motioning me to continue. “Basically they just called me the devil and ran over a puddle, so here I am. Soaked and stained.”

“Brats,” hiss Lev, his light blue eyes going cold. “And to think we’ll see them tomorrow at school.”

Right. There’s school tomorrow. And I may or may not have gotten sick by the Leams’ present. Perfect. Just perfect.

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So this is the story for an English project thing in school. It's just a small part of the story though. Not really my best writing, but my teacher thought it was nice. And I think she was genuine (hopefully). Nothing special, just yeah. Wanted to share.

I'm still tired actually

Why I didn't update yesterday? I was absolutely exhausted. Well, technically, I posted that book recommendation really early yesterday. Around 2 or 3 in the morning I think.

I’m proud to say that I’m being productive lately. School-wise, at least. I’ve been doing a lot of work, and I’ve been making lots of notes (in science, at least). And for the first time in my whole life (even when I was just a kid), I feel actually responsible. Feels nice. Yeah.

Oh, and I got some pixie dust a while ago. So yeah. I may or may not be going back to Neverland soon. If I don’t update this blog for about a week, you guys know where I am.

 Tonight, I'll be working on the storyboard and poster for the trailer of our project. It may actually give me inspiration. Hopefully. Sad though that I won't be able to do any user doodle for people. (I'm so sorry for those people! I promise, I'll do it all soon.)

By the way, I may be posting a playlist another playlist soon. I guess it’ll be about love? To me, there are four categories of music. Songs about love (being in love or about heartbreak, stuff like that), partying, motivating, and Owl City. Yes, Adam Young gets his own category when it comes to me. That category is basically about songs that are great to listen to, but it’ll take a while to understand the actual meaning of the lyrics (or when it doesn’t make any sense). But I love those songs the most. It gives the people the opportunity to figure out what the song means (or, yeah, something like that).

And since I mentioned Adam Young, here's Shooting Star by Owl City. Hope you enjoy! (14 more days until City of Bones! Huzzah!)

Book Of The Week: (4.8.13 - 10.8.13)

Openly Straight by Bill Konigsberg

"A funny, honest novel about being out, being proud... and being ready for something else."

Rafe is a normal teenager from Boulder, Colorado. He plays soccer. He's won skiing prizes. He likes to write.

And, oh yeah, he's gay. He's been out since 8th grade, and he isn't teased, and he goes to other high schools and talks about tolerance and stuff. And while that's important, all Rafe really wants is to just be a regular guy. Not that GAY guy. To have it be a part of who he is, but not the headline, every single time.

So when he transfers to an all-boys' boarding school in New England, he decides to keep his sexuality a secret -- not so much going back in the closet as starting over with a clean slate. But then he sees a classmate breaking down. He meets a teacher who challenges him to write his story. And most of all, he falls in love with Ben . . . who doesn't even know that love is possible.

This witty, smart, coming-out-again story will appeal to gay and straight kids alike as they watch Rafe navigate being different, fitting in, and what it means to be himself.

I just recently read this book, and it’s amazing. It shows that you should be honest to people, and to be honest to people, you need to be honest to yourself. Great book, and I love it! And hopefully if you guys have time to read it, do it!

I noticed I’ve been doing playlists lately, so here’s a book recommendation. And yes, I'm doing this weekly now. I'm serious about it.

WARNING: LONG, USELESS RANT

i warned you

If you by any chance checked my blog a few a hours earlier, you may have noticed that I changed my header. I changed it back to the original, since it looked really pixelated (okay, yeah, my original header is pixelated too, but the second one I made was really pixelated). I guess I’ll try to ask my friend to make me a header (if only I have Photoshop).

Today’s the 7^th of August (or, it is here), and there are only 16 days left (I think) until City of Bones! Wish I could watch on the actual premiere, but my dad told me we’ll watch during the weekend (since a lot of people will be there, and it’ll be crowded I have this issue with crowds okay). I know it’s going to be amazing.

So I need to choose some of my classes for next year. I’m happy there are a lot of classes that have something to do with arts and technology. Those are basically what I want. Sadly, I can’t just attend those classes.

Apparently, there’s a way I could not have Physical Education. Sad part? I need to do Dance. Yeah. I think I’ll just stick to Physical Education. (you will cry if you see me dance, I swear)

And there’s also English Literature. I’m not really sure what that is though. So I’m just going to assume that it’s like one of those classes that read lots of novels, and they will eventually make a paper about the book. Sounds like fun. I guess I’ll choose that.

Under Arts, they have a lot to choose from. We can only choose two courses (for the whole term, I’m not sure if we could change). I can’t decide between Photography, Visual Arts, or Graphic Design. In Photography, we get to go to the darkroom (I always wanted to go in one of those), and we could take pictures and stuff. Visual Arts, it’s broad actually. Drawing, painting, sculpting, and those are usually the things I used to do in my old school. Then there’s Graphic Design, which I was doing also before.

I’ve done Photography before too, but it got complicated, so I switched that class with Graphic Design. I am having one of those dilemmas where you can’t decide with three things you love. And I’m having one of those ‘I-can-feel-the-pressure-of-growing-up’.

So if you anybody asks ‘Who’s Vee?’, tell them I’m Peter Pan. If they ask, don’t explain. And before some of you go ‘You’re a girl! You should be Wendy!’ on me, here’s my explanation: The reason why I don’t want to be Wendy is because she will eventually grow up and accept it. Yes, I know I need to do the same, but I just, ugh. It’s hard to explain. (so yeah, Somewhere In Neverland is my new theme song)

Okay, sorry about that rant. I am just taking this too seriously. I really want to choose the right class, but I’m not sure which one is the right class. And the fact that people will be separated from their friends. I mean, I guess I won’t have much of a problem with that. But yeah, it’s kind of nice that some people talk to me. I really want to talk to them, really I do. I just don’t know what to talk about.

If you’re still reading this, I really appreciate it. Thank you so much. And for that, here’s Penguin by Christina Perri (because I can). Long live and prosper!