Silent Zen

I haven't been feeling well for the past couple of days and I haven't properly sat down to have some time on my own. So here I am now. Though I'm not going to be updating with a story today. I have a sort of rant-ramble thing that I haven't really been able to talk to anybody about, so what better way to just discuss it here. (the fact that there's school tomorrow has nothing to do with this)

So lately people have been telling me to "live my life" a little bit more or that I'm "capable of so much more" compared to what I currently do. And, okay, I get it. I may seem to have a "dull" life and that I should try new things. I really do appreciate people's efforts into trying to make me do things I don't usually do or want. But really, please know that I'm already content with what I have. I'm content with silence, small gestures and acts of kindness, simple things, and being able to finally relax. I'm content with what I have and how things are at the moment. Yes - I still do have ambitions that I am very much planning to fulfill and I know that "there's always room for improvement". But it's simple, really. Though I may go on about minuscule, tedious things, I am very much content with my current situation.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is that though you may encourage others to do other things, please also bear in mind on whether or not the people you're trying to encourage are comfortable with you doing so and that sometimes the things that you may view as "boring" may be what makes some people happy.

I really do apologise for this rambling. Next update will be a continuation of the stories/tales series thing that I've been doing. For today, I would like to recommend The Calling of the Grave by Simon Beckett. I first got a copy of the novel when I was in Europe and I really quite like it. Though it may have grim tones (surely by now you may have guessed the genres I'm into), the novel gave me, ah, let's say "another perspective of thinking". And a song that I've really been enjoying is Coffee by Copeland (probably due to being vaguely related to today's post). Hopefully I haven't bored you or have been too pessimistic (I mean, I usually am a pessimistic person, but I'm not really fond of sharing that outlook with other people). As cliche as this may seem, I genuinely hope you're doing alright and I hope that you're having a wonderful day. Stay safe, and I'll be back. Bye!